Chromosome 14 and Chromosome 18 are Mango's affected chromosomes.
There.
I said it.
Finally.
I'm not sure why I kept the chromosome numbers a secret the past year. I was mostly worried about me telling people the chromosomes involved and they would search it up on the internet the same way I did. Find all the information that I found and freak out. Like I did. I also had a small hole in my heart worried about how people would look at Mango after they knew what they did. So many other small reasons, like I was trying to protect him from the worst. I think now, I was trying to protect myself. Protect myself from opening up the wounds that haven't really healed. The wounds that probably will never really heal but only close with a thin layer of skin.
When we received the diagnosis for Mango, the geneticist couldn't have stressed more, that we should not search online. Ofcourse, that's exactly what I did as soon as we got home. I can't say exactly that it was a bad thing or a very good thing but it was definitely more good than bad. I shocked myself with all the pictures I saw and all the things I read but in time I came to accept that, that could be the worst and I would have to live with it somehow or another. Everything I read or learnt something that had something to do with Mango's chromosomes, I would share with my husband. I feel like I was trying to peel our hearts open layer by layer just to torture myself so my husband and I would stop feeling emotions. The more it hurt to read, the more times I would reread and reread what I didn't want to read anymore. In time we came to accept it all somehow, ready for everything we had learnt.
I would also like to share with you, everything I have learnt about Mango's unbalanced translocation.
P.S. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing this milestone with me in opening up about Mango's chromosome numbers. It's taken more than a while to come this far and I am very glad that I have finally gotten this off my chest. Most of all, thanks for putting up with all the ranting...
Keep in touch!
There.
I said it.
Finally.
I'm not sure why I kept the chromosome numbers a secret the past year. I was mostly worried about me telling people the chromosomes involved and they would search it up on the internet the same way I did. Find all the information that I found and freak out. Like I did. I also had a small hole in my heart worried about how people would look at Mango after they knew what they did. So many other small reasons, like I was trying to protect him from the worst. I think now, I was trying to protect myself. Protect myself from opening up the wounds that haven't really healed. The wounds that probably will never really heal but only close with a thin layer of skin.
When we received the diagnosis for Mango, the geneticist couldn't have stressed more, that we should not search online. Ofcourse, that's exactly what I did as soon as we got home. I can't say exactly that it was a bad thing or a very good thing but it was definitely more good than bad. I shocked myself with all the pictures I saw and all the things I read but in time I came to accept that, that could be the worst and I would have to live with it somehow or another. Everything I read or learnt something that had something to do with Mango's chromosomes, I would share with my husband. I feel like I was trying to peel our hearts open layer by layer just to torture myself so my husband and I would stop feeling emotions. The more it hurt to read, the more times I would reread and reread what I didn't want to read anymore. In time we came to accept it all somehow, ready for everything we had learnt.
I would also like to share with you, everything I have learnt about Mango's unbalanced translocation.
P.S. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing this milestone with me in opening up about Mango's chromosome numbers. It's taken more than a while to come this far and I am very glad that I have finally gotten this off my chest. Most of all, thanks for putting up with all the ranting...
Keep in touch!
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