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Mango has been in hospital because of bronciolitis. His been so floppy and weak. I sit here bouncing his rocker and when I look at him, my heart breaks. He fights everyday and so I asked myself what's the difference now? He is still fighting, fighting off an infection. The difference is that the past few days, I've seen him surrender. I don't know how other mothers do it. I look at my baby who is attached to a feeding tube and oxygen. His mouth hangs open because he has no more strength to even holding closed and I ask myself how can I fight for him? I know it's just something that life is - to fight everyday. I thought my heart couldn't break anymore than it had but I as wrong. I as very wrong. My heart breaks as if it were never broken to start with. Mango looks at me with swollen pink eyes and tears streaming down his face, crying for me as if begging me to help him. All I can do is pat his back.... 

Please keep us in your prayers....