As a parent of a special needs child, I always find myself in situations where people find it okay to comment on me about my children, faith, parenting and everything else they can think of. I know, I know, I know. They mean well. Blah blah blah blah.
1 - "I'm Sorry''
While a statement like this seems like the only thing you can say sometimes. It actually is offensive to the person who your saying 'sorry' to.
What happens next? What do we say? "don't worry", "He is okay", "Oh, it's nothing". There is no reply for this. I'm not sorry that my kid has a genetic disorder. He is my kid, after all. We don't need or want sympathy or pity. We really don't want it. So by saying 'sorry', you are apologising for us being in the situation we are in, feeling sorry for us. Again, I say this, we don't want pity.
2 - "I hope he gets better soon (Shifa)" (not including when he is sick)
My son has a genetic disorder. A genetic disorder is not a sickness. It can cause his body to have a low immune system but the genetic disorder itself is not a sickness. His hearing impairment is not a sickness. His vision impairment is not a sickness. His lack of development is not a sickness. Nothing about him is sick. And because it is not a sickness, it can not be cured. It is, what it is. Just the way it is. I know alot of people find it hard to accept or understand that something like this is not a sickness. My family took it very hard always asking what it was that we could prevent this from happening again or getting this again (like it was a some virus that you could pass on) but it's not. It takes a while to accept the fact that it just happened. So please don't say this. Because he is not sick.
3 - "He looks fine, he doesn't look like he has anything"
Thanks for trying to make me feel better. It didn't work. So far, in our two and a half years of life, nobody (except my sister) has actually admitted that Mango looks 'different'. Than you sister. I love you.
We know he isn't 'typical looking'. That's how we found out about his genetic disorder in the first place. His facial features. We know his ten fingers and eleven toes look weird. Yes, That's right. I just said eleven (two bones in one toe). We know certain physical features gave the genetic disorder away.
4 - "At least you have a normal kid too"
There are two parts of this common saying.
1. The word 'normal' . Your meaning of normal could be very different from what my meaning of normal is. Your normal could mean, waking up in the morning, feeding the kids breakfast and going to meet friends on a play date, while my normal is waking up, feeding the kids as fast as I can and rushing out the door like a mad women to try and reach our hospital appointment in time. There is no normal.
2. You are so very very wrong. Seeing your younger child doing all the things the older child may never do, is a constant reminder of the loss that you feel. It reminds you everyday that Mango may never get there. A daily reminder that Mango may never learn to solve his problems or learn the hand and mouth co-ordination skill or learn how to lift himself with his hands but only his elbows and do so much more that your 6 month old is already doing. A reminder that your darling Mango, is so different. It makes you sad everyday, reminding you that your 'nest' that is eventually supposed to be empty, will never be. It's a constant reminder, to you, every time, you look into the two most perfect faces who think the world of you, of how your hopes and dreams were once crushed by the reality of 'never happening'.
5 - "God only gives you what you can handle"
As much as I believe this line to be true. I feel as if, when someone says it. It just sounds so rude. Pretty much like 'Stop complaining'. For me, this line has always been brought out at the wrong time and wrong place for me.
My husband and I actually spoke about this line over dinner once. We spoke about how, one simple sentence could mean so many things and none of them were nice.
I know, I can handle things because we do. This doesn't mean that we aren't allowed to share our disappointments. This also shouldn't mean that we become too worried to say anything because we feel that someone is going to take our disappointment the wrong way and think that we are ungrateful for having Mango.
Sometimes, I feel like putting my hand up to their face and saying 'Just shhh. Just. sshhh. ssssshhhhhhHHHHHHHH!! Don't say another word'. *High five in the face*
*I can feel my blood boiling and my heart starting to beat a little faster*
6 - "I know so-and-so and they know so-and-so's, sister has a child with a genetic disorder, so I get it."
You don't get it. You don't even get a small bit of it. The fact that you had the audacity to say such a thing, just proves that you don't get it. Unless you have walked in my shoes and been through what I have. You don't get it.
7 - ''Maybe you need to pray more"
Ahhh... I have actually got this one before. It left me crying in the car for hours. I don't even have the word to explain this one.
The first thing our geneticist told us after breaking the news about Mango to us was "There is nothing you did or didn't do. Should have or could have done, to prevent this. It just happened and there is nothing to explain why. It just happened."
8- Don't ever say "Retard" or "Retarded"
The moment I became a special needs mother. The word retard has suddenly become extremely offensive. The medical term for Mango's cognitive delay is 'mental retardation'. The word is tossed around so lightly and used for jokes, noone really knows it proper meaning anymore. Delay is obviously a better use of language. Especially when you are talking to me. Its a horrible feeling. The moment the word is said, I get this knot in my stomach and without even knowing it, I take a mental note that the friendship I have with this person is a little ruined, a little trust is lost and I plan on keep my distance to protect my heart from being hurt this way again. The word is so backward-living. People I love, tell me I shouldn't be offended when they use the term retard or retarded. But I am and I always will be. Why should I not be offended. Please explain to me this. If so many people in this world find this word offensive, but the parents of children with special needs are apparently being label 'too sensitive' when we get upset because of this. How is that fair. The word has been changed, they have changed it to 'delay'. Use it.
While everything here is said from a nice place in everyones heart, Please understand that most of the time, they are actually offensive. How else would you know if we didn't tell you, right? You wouldn't know. Most of us parents understand that people always mean well, so we don't say anything. Alot of the times we just nod and smile. But you just never know what type of mother, might be holding on to the last straw on the camels back with all her might, hoping she wont break. A small line like this could go a long way and just might be the thing that makes her break. Think before you speak.
1 - "I'm Sorry''
While a statement like this seems like the only thing you can say sometimes. It actually is offensive to the person who your saying 'sorry' to.
What happens next? What do we say? "don't worry", "He is okay", "Oh, it's nothing". There is no reply for this. I'm not sorry that my kid has a genetic disorder. He is my kid, after all. We don't need or want sympathy or pity. We really don't want it. So by saying 'sorry', you are apologising for us being in the situation we are in, feeling sorry for us. Again, I say this, we don't want pity.
2 - "I hope he gets better soon (Shifa)" (not including when he is sick)
My son has a genetic disorder. A genetic disorder is not a sickness. It can cause his body to have a low immune system but the genetic disorder itself is not a sickness. His hearing impairment is not a sickness. His vision impairment is not a sickness. His lack of development is not a sickness. Nothing about him is sick. And because it is not a sickness, it can not be cured. It is, what it is. Just the way it is. I know alot of people find it hard to accept or understand that something like this is not a sickness. My family took it very hard always asking what it was that we could prevent this from happening again or getting this again (like it was a some virus that you could pass on) but it's not. It takes a while to accept the fact that it just happened. So please don't say this. Because he is not sick.
3 - "He looks fine, he doesn't look like he has anything"
Thanks for trying to make me feel better. It didn't work. So far, in our two and a half years of life, nobody (except my sister) has actually admitted that Mango looks 'different'. Than you sister. I love you.
We know he isn't 'typical looking'. That's how we found out about his genetic disorder in the first place. His facial features. We know his ten fingers and eleven toes look weird. Yes, That's right. I just said eleven (two bones in one toe). We know certain physical features gave the genetic disorder away.
4 - "At least you have a normal kid too"
There are two parts of this common saying.
1. The word 'normal' . Your meaning of normal could be very different from what my meaning of normal is. Your normal could mean, waking up in the morning, feeding the kids breakfast and going to meet friends on a play date, while my normal is waking up, feeding the kids as fast as I can and rushing out the door like a mad women to try and reach our hospital appointment in time. There is no normal.
2. You are so very very wrong. Seeing your younger child doing all the things the older child may never do, is a constant reminder of the loss that you feel. It reminds you everyday that Mango may never get there. A daily reminder that Mango may never learn to solve his problems or learn the hand and mouth co-ordination skill or learn how to lift himself with his hands but only his elbows and do so much more that your 6 month old is already doing. A reminder that your darling Mango, is so different. It makes you sad everyday, reminding you that your 'nest' that is eventually supposed to be empty, will never be. It's a constant reminder, to you, every time, you look into the two most perfect faces who think the world of you, of how your hopes and dreams were once crushed by the reality of 'never happening'.
5 - "God only gives you what you can handle"
As much as I believe this line to be true. I feel as if, when someone says it. It just sounds so rude. Pretty much like 'Stop complaining'. For me, this line has always been brought out at the wrong time and wrong place for me.
My husband and I actually spoke about this line over dinner once. We spoke about how, one simple sentence could mean so many things and none of them were nice.
I know, I can handle things because we do. This doesn't mean that we aren't allowed to share our disappointments. This also shouldn't mean that we become too worried to say anything because we feel that someone is going to take our disappointment the wrong way and think that we are ungrateful for having Mango.
Sometimes, I feel like putting my hand up to their face and saying 'Just shhh. Just. sshhh. ssssshhhhhhHHHHHHHH!! Don't say another word'. *High five in the face*
*I can feel my blood boiling and my heart starting to beat a little faster*
6 - "I know so-and-so and they know so-and-so's, sister has a child with a genetic disorder, so I get it."
You don't get it. You don't even get a small bit of it. The fact that you had the audacity to say such a thing, just proves that you don't get it. Unless you have walked in my shoes and been through what I have. You don't get it.
7 - ''Maybe you need to pray more"
Ahhh... I have actually got this one before. It left me crying in the car for hours. I don't even have the word to explain this one.
The first thing our geneticist told us after breaking the news about Mango to us was "There is nothing you did or didn't do. Should have or could have done, to prevent this. It just happened and there is nothing to explain why. It just happened."
8- Don't ever say "Retard" or "Retarded"
The moment I became a special needs mother. The word retard has suddenly become extremely offensive. The medical term for Mango's cognitive delay is 'mental retardation'. The word is tossed around so lightly and used for jokes, noone really knows it proper meaning anymore. Delay is obviously a better use of language. Especially when you are talking to me. Its a horrible feeling. The moment the word is said, I get this knot in my stomach and without even knowing it, I take a mental note that the friendship I have with this person is a little ruined, a little trust is lost and I plan on keep my distance to protect my heart from being hurt this way again. The word is so backward-living. People I love, tell me I shouldn't be offended when they use the term retard or retarded. But I am and I always will be. Why should I not be offended. Please explain to me this. If so many people in this world find this word offensive, but the parents of children with special needs are apparently being label 'too sensitive' when we get upset because of this. How is that fair. The word has been changed, they have changed it to 'delay'. Use it.
While everything here is said from a nice place in everyones heart, Please understand that most of the time, they are actually offensive. How else would you know if we didn't tell you, right? You wouldn't know. Most of us parents understand that people always mean well, so we don't say anything. Alot of the times we just nod and smile. But you just never know what type of mother, might be holding on to the last straw on the camels back with all her might, hoping she wont break. A small line like this could go a long way and just might be the thing that makes her break. Think before you speak.
